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Saturday, March 31, 2007

Hey:D
It's sharmaine here! Isaac's computer died on him, so i'm helping up update tadayyyy(: he said he'll update it real soon. Which will be.... soon. Hopefully! HAHAHA:D I'm kinda high on nothing at all, but yeah(:

Anw, Isaac said Shepard Yk gave him a bible as a present last last saturday(: Well Isaac, you'd better read it with understanding(: Then you'll know why sometimes, life gets you down in the dumps.

Oh, & it's april fools day tmrw!!!!!! HAHAHAHA, Okay i rlly have nothing to blog about(:
Except...
Issac, you'd better update soon(:

& I know you know this song, but I'll just put it here(:

Heart Of Worship
When the music fades and all is stripped away
And I simply come
Longing just to bring something that's of worth
That will bless Your heart

I'll bring You more than a song
For a song in itself
Is not what You have required
You search much deeper within
Through the way things appear
You're looking into my heart

I'm coming back to the heart of worship
And it's all about You
All about You, Jesus
I'm sorry, Lord, for the things I've made it
When it's all about You
All about You, Jesus

King of endless worth, no one could express
How much You deserve
Though I'm weak and poor, all I have is Yours
Every single breath

Sharmaine:D

11:29 PM; The Pianist'

Friday, March 16, 2007

Childish la Evelyn. Haiz. Nothing to do go spam ppl... Geez... Kids these days are so annoying. Haha went East Coast today with Rain, Hu Rui, Yong Kia, Hong Ji, Wakka and e... Jun Yan haha... Rode on bike and rollerblades... Havent bladed in like a few years ba... Lol Wakka first time rollerblading... Fell alot of times lolx... I heng heng never fall at all hehe... Fun day la haha... But didnt really got to know some stuff... Like rain's back hurting and why Jun Yan so Emo... Nobody want to tell me zzz... Haha Tomorrow Campus... Haha.... Very nervous ba... Lol awaiting news tomorrow.... No confidence though... But im sure God will guide me along...

12:36 AM; The Pianist'

Tuesday, March 13, 2007

Damn this stupid world. Whats the stupid problem with those who think they are so great? How many times have i hinted that what i wanted was a freedom of choices to make, not BECAUSE I GIVE BIRTH TO YOU SO I HAVE THE RIGHT TO MAKE YOU DO THIS. Damn parents. Wth do they think they are? Lord i prayed and i swear i prayed hard everyday. Set things right for me this time lord. I dont want to be separated from you, Not again. I repented on my sins... Why am i still being punished? To hell with obligations. I dont care about anything else lord. I just want to be with you. Thats all i want. I dont need a truckload of millions of dollars to cover up for this but all i want is your presence and nothing else. I am willing to give my life back to you, damn all this people who separate me from you... Damnit...

6:57 PM; The Pianist'

Monday, March 12, 2007

Because you Love me - Celine Dion
For all those times you stood by me
For all the truth that you made me see
For all the joy you brought to my life
For all the wrong that you made right
For every dream you made come true
For all the love I found in you
I'll be forever thankful baby
You're the one who held me up
Never let me fall
You're the one who saw me through through it all

You were my strength when I was weak
You were my voice when I couldn't speak
You were my eyes when I couldn't see
You saw the best there was in me
Lifted me up when I couldn't reach
You gave me faith 'coz you believed
I'm everything I am Because you loved me

You gave me wings and made me fly
You touched my hand I could touch the sky
I lost my faith, you gave it back to me
You said no star was out of reach
You stood by me and I stood tall
I had your love I had it all
I'm grateful for each day you gave me
Maybe I don't know that much
But I know this much is true I was blessed because I was loved by you

You were my strength when I was weak
You were my voice when I couldn't speak
You were my eyes when I couldn't see
You saw the best there was in me
Lifted me up when I couldn't reach
You gave me faith 'coz you believed
I'm everything I am Because you loved me

You were always there for me
The tender wind that carried me
A light in the dark shining your love into my life
You've been my inspiration
Through the lies you were the truth
My world is a better place because of you
You were my strength when I was weak
You were my voice when I couldn't speak
You were my eyes when I couldn't see
You saw the best there was in me
Lifted me up when I couldn't reach
You gave me faith 'coz you believed I'm everything I am Because you loved me
I'm everything I am Because you loved me

Haha went to watch Ghost Raider with HJ just now... Quite nice ba the show... Haha dunno how to explain it but anyway... went arcade after... Had holiday bonus so... topped $20 with HJ... i 10... he 10... Haha played all the crap games... HJ still sux at Time Crisis XD!!! lolx dun suan him le la hahaha...
All went my house after that... They didnt really like MGS though... Well... Played Dead Or Alive then Soul Calibur. Haha quite a interesting day though... XD

9:51 PM; The Pianist'

Sunday, March 11, 2007

I thought that life would be of freedom, trust and that everything would be fine... I was wrong... Satan did everything he could to separate me from the Lord. I lived in my own sorrow and misery. I searched hard for the Lord to come to me, to comfort me when I was all alone, crying for injustice and unfairness. I realized that i have not fully surrendered my life... I do sin even when I think of the Lord and that I hate myself a lot for that. The more i did... The more the sorrow, the misery I had to overcome. Thanks to the service yesterday, i realized that the point is, I have not opened up my door for the Lord to enter yet! Learnt to stay focused on the Lord when he feels so... Distant...
So tired... Fell asleep during church yesterday... Went PC bunk later on... Sian ba...
Today... Nth much... Just disappointment with parents... Felt fine after talking to Jinqi...
Sian ahhh change shepherd again... New Shepherd is... YK!!!! Hah expected it... Lolx... Haven't had shepherding in 2 months i guess... Hmm... Work hard YK!!!

Have my time ended? Has it all come to an end? Stop condemning me Satan! Why! Save me oh lord... I long for the day i can worship you wholeheartedly again... Save me again... For I know i have sinned... I seek absolute power in weakness and faith in fear... Take me, flatten and mould me into whatever you want me to be oh lord... Because i know that it shall be the best sculpture any artist can ever create... I will never trade you for anything else in the world, for everything that is visible is temporial... Things that i cannot see... Is eternal... Lord... You are great... Thank you lord... For you have strengthened me again in my weakness...

11:13 AM; The Pianist'

Wednesday, March 7, 2007

Psalm 32:8
I will instruct you and teach you in the way you should go; I will counsel you and watch over you.

Been a long time... Finally got Internet... Mum dun wan to pay up lolx... So many things happened in my life lol!... Didnt have the chance to even blur them all out!!! Hahaha... Anyway... Went to Seoul Garden with Rain, Melissa, Angela, Hong Ji, Vinod, Jun Yan and sorry if i missed someone out =X... Heh that place is super anti-vegetarian la... Melissa just took one chunk of meat and poured it all in the cooking thinggy... Ate alot that day... Vomited when i got home... Lolx... Thanks to the CHAO DAR meat...

Hmm... Some Emo pics were taken over at Tiong bus-stop.lys.. Haha... All the people i mentioned again... Heh... Havent got those pics yet...

Lolx went for Cip today... Fun seh!!!! A little disappointed in the class and in myself too... I saw how the MC tried to encourage the rest of the 3F people to interact with the elders... Haiz... Forgot half of my wushu moves... One year liao lor... Haiz... Damn disappointed in the disorganism and the lack of team spirit... Just look at 3F... No Unity... First day, Quarrel. Cant we just tolerate each other for the rest for the 2 years for a better future? Isnt quarelling wasting time and making you old? Bleah... All i got to say for now... Needa prepare for CG tomorrow...
God shall lead my way...

10:19 PM; The Pianist'

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