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Monday, July 2, 2007

Whats wrong with me now?! I hate this God.. I just hate it.. I hate to be myself i just hate what i cannot do. God I JUST HATE BEING ME! WHY??? I failed to carry out my duties not because Im lazy but because im just STUPID! WHY god why? Why me.. Im tired... Im tired of defending my rights im just tired of arguements and problems. God what is going on with me? Lord why did you have to put so much hunger in me. WHY GOD??? Is it because im neglectant? I kept your word i live it. Whats wrong with me???? Why are you taking away my responsibilities and adding relaxation to me? WHY??? Am i not worthy to serve? Am i not worthy to do great things? Why god just why... I dont want to do this.. I dont want this to happen... God BURDEN ME God BURDEN ME PLEASE, because relaxation is a bigger burden to me! God! What is going on! Are you testing me? My obedience? It is absolute god... I hear you out and nobody else. Why? Why dont you want to speak to me. I will pray everyday and i shall open up my heart. God you promised. YOU PROMISED. SPEAK TO ME! Why??? Why allow me to relax myself? God i dont want to relax i dont want this. God ALL I WANT IS YOUR KINGDOM TO EXPAND!!! WHY???? Why am i relaxing so much????
God please help me.. Help me to serve you better... Dont do this to me God... Its like a bed of roses now.. Why? Am i not worthy anymore? Am I not your worthy diciple anymore? I shall not lie i shant steal i shall keep to your word. But why... WHY DO THIS TO ME????? Im worried god. This isnt the life i want it to be. Resting in your arms and not working hard for what I am.GOD BURDEN ME! I cant take it anymore.. I ask all this in Jesus name... Amen...

11:44 AM; The Pianist'

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