Thursday, October 25, 2007
God did not direct His call to Isaiah— Isaiah overheard God saying, ". . . who will go for Us?" The call of God is not just for a selected few but for everyone. Whether I hear God’s call or not depends on the condition of my ears, and exactly what I hear depends upon my spiritual attitude. "Many are called, but few are chosen" (Matthew 22:14). That is, few prove that they are the chosen ones. The chosen ones are those who have come into a relationship with God through Jesus Christ and have had their spiritual condition changed and their ears opened. Then they hear "the voice of the Lord" continually asking, ". . . who will go for Us?" However, God doesn’t single out someone and say, "Now, you go." He did not force His will on Isaiah. Isaiah was in the presence of God, and he overheard the call. His response, performed in complete freedom, could only be to say, "Here am I! Send me."
Remove the thought from your mind of expecting God to come to force you or to plead with you. When our Lord called His disciples, He did it without irresistible pressure from the outside. The quiet, yet passionate, insistence of His "Follow Me" was spoken to men whose every sense was receptive (Matthew 4:19). If we will allow the Holy Spirit to bring us face to face with God, we too will hear what Isaiah heard-"the voice of the Lord." In perfect freedom we too will say, "Here am I! Send me.
Have the group been growing? I think not. Spiritually, we are deproving and the group is dying, running out of food. Our supply is still there, but we are not chosen because we refuse to be chosen. Shall we take the step of faith and walk into the light of god's plan? Follow god today! There are many out there who are yet to be saved. Jiayou central b1 on breaking 10 ^^. Lets do all we can these holidays man ^^.
Remove the thought from your mind of expecting God to come to force you or to plead with you. When our Lord called His disciples, He did it without irresistible pressure from the outside. The quiet, yet passionate, insistence of His "Follow Me" was spoken to men whose every sense was receptive (Matthew 4:19). If we will allow the Holy Spirit to bring us face to face with God, we too will hear what Isaiah heard-"the voice of the Lord." In perfect freedom we too will say, "Here am I! Send me.
Have the group been growing? I think not. Spiritually, we are deproving and the group is dying, running out of food. Our supply is still there, but we are not chosen because we refuse to be chosen. Shall we take the step of faith and walk into the light of god's plan? Follow god today! There are many out there who are yet to be saved. Jiayou central b1 on breaking 10 ^^. Lets do all we can these holidays man ^^.
3:08 PM; The Pianist'
Wednesday, October 24, 2007
Science is so NOT a religion -.-. Definitely, science cant get you to heaven -.-.
Lol anti christ anti christ.. Haha whatever man. Ive been trying to make myself believe that you guys were right but lol too bad i aint going to hell with you guys. I enjoy living in righteousness in biblical fellowship and in truth, not your self - Centered ideals. I cannot deny that christians are sinful as well, but hey, your no better? Whats so great about cursing and swearing and making only yourself feel better at the expense of the feelings of others? This is the attitude of the anti-christ, who seeks power and dominance, leading people to worship their "ideals" and put their faith in him that he can lead the world to a new golden age. My ass man. Hes just leading all of us into hell?
Why dont I see things in their perspective? Lol if i do I'm just letting you decieve me. Lol what has Jesus done for us? Went all the way to the cross for? Come down from the heavens for? Why the hell would he wana die for us? Love stupid! Its love that has brought me here, and walking alongside me everyday, lending me a helping hand when i fall and forgiving me whenever i sin unconsciously. I believe not only in repentance, but in total obedience. You guys may think God's plan is bullshit. Let me tell you this : if he is God, his plan is flawless. If you think yer smart, think again anti-christ. I've got no time for losers like you. You cant call yourself neutral when you can only list the negative impact religion has caused. Heh to be precise, it is not religion that has caused this. Its people like you who has no respect at all? What for dream about useless ideals you will never succeed in accomplishing? I've never seen anyone stupid enough to continue the works of a devil. Hitler is dead and enjoying his punishment by burning in hell. Who's stupid enough to believe in the God who decieves, who plays with you and devours you when it's time, who tells you Jesus died for you to decieve the world. In the end, the decision lies in ourselves.
I believe that my God has been faithful in finding the lost and healing them. As for those too comfortable out there and think of only what Satan has done, your idiots. God never wants us in that hell. If you wana be a anti-christ, please read the bible before you talk. Oh and as for all those false teachings, seriously man get a life. We may fall into your trap, but we trust in our god, not you. We may have your ideals, but god will abolish all that and bring us to where we belong, heaven. And you will stay there in your hell burning with anger and boredom.
Dont we all get it? Satan offers temporial opportunities that seem really exciting and fun. Let me tell you, I think taking a piss in the toilet is a better example of time used purposefully. Instead of having a mindset of dominating the world and making others believe you, killing people who dont, why dont we just settle down and humble ourselves in the lord who forgives us?
We do not have to look in the other perspective because it dosen't make any sense. No matter how much you twist and turn questions there will always be an answer to it. The other perspective is just toal bullshit since it aint even neutral. All they see is the aftermath of the false people of christ. They never ever looked within. Brothers, lose no faith in our god for he is here for us every second, protecting us from the anti-christ..
Father in heaven,
I pray that no more, shall we be decieved, no more shall mankind be tortured. Your word is my command.What is thy will?my lord. I pray for a solution in Jesus, name, Amen
This is getting too far man;
OMFG STOP BEING DUMB GENESIS , SHANE ,ISAAC , WHATEVER BITCh ->KAILI(i luv u )
Im NOT A SATANIST , IM A ANTI CHRIST , CMON KAILI , YOUR SUCH A LOSER GO GET A LIFE AND LIFT A PISTOL TO KILL SUM ONE OMFG JON U RUINED MY LIFE IM IN SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO DEEP SHIT RIGHT NOW OMFG I WISH MY XBOX WAS ALIVE OMFG I WISHED MY LIFE WOULD HAVE BEEN SAVED BY JESUS OR SUMTHING LIKE EINSTIEN (YES HE IS GREATER THEN GOD), OMFG ISAAC STOP WHINING ABOUT ME BEING A SATANIST CUZ IM A ANTI-CHRIST U BITCH GO RETAIN AND GET A LIFE MUSIC LUVER ( u sux) OMFG WHY MUST LIFE BE LEIK THIS.OMFG GENESIS GO SUCK MY COCK OMFG JESUS SAVE ME FROM YOUR FOLLOWER'S BULLSHIT.Fine , let me clear some doubts.-Satanist and Anti-christAnti christ deny the existence of jesusSatanist worship no ruler , but learn from satan (neutral to jesus )Get yur facts RIGHTJESUS SAVE ME FROM YUR FOLLOWER'S BULLSHIT
Lol this is how shitheads talk? This is how shitheads claim they are fit to be leaders of the world and dominate with hate? Doing things that totally dosent benefit themselves just because they are possessed by such Stupid ideals the dead leave behind? Having the mindset of that by doing something significant, good or bad,will earn them a place in heaven. Firstly, they denied the heavens and later spoke of a heaven. Hell they mean? Only idiots believe that by killing everyone else, you earn a place in heaven. Where has peace gone too? We should be free men, who seek peace not bullshit like controlling others with violence. If they shall be the leaders of the world, what have we all come to? Madness? This is insanity really. Brother turning against brother. Sister against sister. Till men exists no more? Whatever man. As long as i live, ill do whatever it takes to abolish all this crap. Whatever dominance whatever power ill rip it off you and it shall burn with you in hell. Non-christians dont you think this makes sense? Lol following that of hitler, going around insulting christianity, hurting others, making others hate you, then what. Get pride from it and lie that you have won the whatever argument by blocking others. You aint even fit to read a christian blog or insult people like this? You got no guts at all anyway. All you do is decieve while trying to alter truths you can never alter. Stop it seriously. Im getting sick, everyone is. Foolish moron..
Lol anti christ anti christ.. Haha whatever man. Ive been trying to make myself believe that you guys were right but lol too bad i aint going to hell with you guys. I enjoy living in righteousness in biblical fellowship and in truth, not your self - Centered ideals. I cannot deny that christians are sinful as well, but hey, your no better? Whats so great about cursing and swearing and making only yourself feel better at the expense of the feelings of others? This is the attitude of the anti-christ, who seeks power and dominance, leading people to worship their "ideals" and put their faith in him that he can lead the world to a new golden age. My ass man. Hes just leading all of us into hell?
Why dont I see things in their perspective? Lol if i do I'm just letting you decieve me. Lol what has Jesus done for us? Went all the way to the cross for? Come down from the heavens for? Why the hell would he wana die for us? Love stupid! Its love that has brought me here, and walking alongside me everyday, lending me a helping hand when i fall and forgiving me whenever i sin unconsciously. I believe not only in repentance, but in total obedience. You guys may think God's plan is bullshit. Let me tell you this : if he is God, his plan is flawless. If you think yer smart, think again anti-christ. I've got no time for losers like you. You cant call yourself neutral when you can only list the negative impact religion has caused. Heh to be precise, it is not religion that has caused this. Its people like you who has no respect at all? What for dream about useless ideals you will never succeed in accomplishing? I've never seen anyone stupid enough to continue the works of a devil. Hitler is dead and enjoying his punishment by burning in hell. Who's stupid enough to believe in the God who decieves, who plays with you and devours you when it's time, who tells you Jesus died for you to decieve the world. In the end, the decision lies in ourselves.
I believe that my God has been faithful in finding the lost and healing them. As for those too comfortable out there and think of only what Satan has done, your idiots. God never wants us in that hell. If you wana be a anti-christ, please read the bible before you talk. Oh and as for all those false teachings, seriously man get a life. We may fall into your trap, but we trust in our god, not you. We may have your ideals, but god will abolish all that and bring us to where we belong, heaven. And you will stay there in your hell burning with anger and boredom.
Dont we all get it? Satan offers temporial opportunities that seem really exciting and fun. Let me tell you, I think taking a piss in the toilet is a better example of time used purposefully. Instead of having a mindset of dominating the world and making others believe you, killing people who dont, why dont we just settle down and humble ourselves in the lord who forgives us?
We do not have to look in the other perspective because it dosen't make any sense. No matter how much you twist and turn questions there will always be an answer to it. The other perspective is just toal bullshit since it aint even neutral. All they see is the aftermath of the false people of christ. They never ever looked within. Brothers, lose no faith in our god for he is here for us every second, protecting us from the anti-christ..
Father in heaven,
I pray that no more, shall we be decieved, no more shall mankind be tortured. Your word is my command.What is thy will?my lord. I pray for a solution in Jesus, name, Amen
This is getting too far man;
OMFG STOP BEING DUMB GENESIS , SHANE ,ISAAC , WHATEVER BITCh ->KAILI(i luv u )
Im NOT A SATANIST , IM A ANTI CHRIST , CMON KAILI , YOUR SUCH A LOSER GO GET A LIFE AND LIFT A PISTOL TO KILL SUM ONE OMFG JON U RUINED MY LIFE IM IN SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO DEEP SHIT RIGHT NOW OMFG I WISH MY XBOX WAS ALIVE OMFG I WISHED MY LIFE WOULD HAVE BEEN SAVED BY JESUS OR SUMTHING LIKE EINSTIEN (YES HE IS GREATER THEN GOD), OMFG ISAAC STOP WHINING ABOUT ME BEING A SATANIST CUZ IM A ANTI-CHRIST U BITCH GO RETAIN AND GET A LIFE MUSIC LUVER ( u sux) OMFG WHY MUST LIFE BE LEIK THIS.OMFG GENESIS GO SUCK MY COCK OMFG JESUS SAVE ME FROM YOUR FOLLOWER'S BULLSHIT.Fine , let me clear some doubts.-Satanist and Anti-christAnti christ deny the existence of jesusSatanist worship no ruler , but learn from satan (neutral to jesus )Get yur facts RIGHTJESUS SAVE ME FROM YUR FOLLOWER'S BULLSHIT
Lol this is how shitheads talk? This is how shitheads claim they are fit to be leaders of the world and dominate with hate? Doing things that totally dosent benefit themselves just because they are possessed by such Stupid ideals the dead leave behind? Having the mindset of that by doing something significant, good or bad,will earn them a place in heaven. Firstly, they denied the heavens and later spoke of a heaven. Hell they mean? Only idiots believe that by killing everyone else, you earn a place in heaven. Where has peace gone too? We should be free men, who seek peace not bullshit like controlling others with violence. If they shall be the leaders of the world, what have we all come to? Madness? This is insanity really. Brother turning against brother. Sister against sister. Till men exists no more? Whatever man. As long as i live, ill do whatever it takes to abolish all this crap. Whatever dominance whatever power ill rip it off you and it shall burn with you in hell. Non-christians dont you think this makes sense? Lol following that of hitler, going around insulting christianity, hurting others, making others hate you, then what. Get pride from it and lie that you have won the whatever argument by blocking others. You aint even fit to read a christian blog or insult people like this? You got no guts at all anyway. All you do is decieve while trying to alter truths you can never alter. Stop it seriously. Im getting sick, everyone is. Foolish moron..
9:22 PM; The Pianist'
Tuesday, October 23, 2007
Lol anti-christ, anti-christ, wana be hitler, wana be hitler, whatever man... Lol a man who claims that hitler is his god? LOL. Worship hitler wana be the successer of hitler, lol whatever. Sounds like how a kid thinks. "HITLER IS COOL, HITLER OWNS" LOL man. Hitler's dead and prolly cleaning satan's ass in hell now. I cant believe theres someone stupid enough to want to join him. Oh well A fool says there is no God.
"How has religion played a part in the world?"
Let me tell you this, religion is part of the lives which most of this world depend on as their last hope of life. If you think immortality, science and crap shit you got is your religion, suits me fine really lol. Christianity have truely saved my ass ages ago. Oh just thank your hitler that your still alive. -.-... Nothing to say really.
"Why would people go to hell if god loves us?"
LOL simple enough, you didnt research enough mr whatever scientist. Your the one whos bringing yourself down to hell ^^. lol yer trying to say satan is your saviour? Your purpose in life is to serve him? LOL seriously i believe time can be spent constructively.
"Your wasting time praying and seeking god in church"
Lol even if god wasnt real i havent wasted my time changing my life for the better. Well to summarise, im better off without vulgarities and living for only myself. This is my blog, respect what i am what i believe. If you wana start war, i've got tens of thousands of brothers on my side. How has satan backed you up? Giving you false hope that the world is better off without a purpose? Without purity without justice is the world better off? Lol religion is what dying people cling on to as their last hope they place in their god. If your gonna further insult how we think, i seriously think you got nothing better to do.
"How has religion played a part in the world?"
Let me tell you this, religion is part of the lives which most of this world depend on as their last hope of life. If you think immortality, science and crap shit you got is your religion, suits me fine really lol. Christianity have truely saved my ass ages ago. Oh just thank your hitler that your still alive. -.-... Nothing to say really.
"Why would people go to hell if god loves us?"
LOL simple enough, you didnt research enough mr whatever scientist. Your the one whos bringing yourself down to hell ^^. lol yer trying to say satan is your saviour? Your purpose in life is to serve him? LOL seriously i believe time can be spent constructively.
"Your wasting time praying and seeking god in church"
Lol even if god wasnt real i havent wasted my time changing my life for the better. Well to summarise, im better off without vulgarities and living for only myself. This is my blog, respect what i am what i believe. If you wana start war, i've got tens of thousands of brothers on my side. How has satan backed you up? Giving you false hope that the world is better off without a purpose? Without purity without justice is the world better off? Lol religion is what dying people cling on to as their last hope they place in their god. If your gonna further insult how we think, i seriously think you got nothing better to do.
7:33 PM; The Pianist'
Friday, October 19, 2007
Failure?
What did failure mean to me actually? Well I failed God's perfect plan for me. I do not regret if I retain this year, cuz i did my best. God knows. It just shows how stupid I am? Maybe Ming is right, ive got low iq. So what? Im better off being stupid scoring badly for exams but at least im someone who is able to carry out my duties and making a positive impact on the lives of many. Im better off than one who boasts around about how good he is and insulting people like me. So what i may be weaker in this? Dosen't mean Ill lose to shitheads like him?
The results are almost out. Im still uncertain of who is going to retain. But im certain that i have a 1% chance of promoting. Who cares anyway.. Im not good in my studies anyway. I study harder than the rest but all i get is.. Shitty grades? I excel in music though.. Not that bad after all.. God didnt create us to be useless perhaps... Whatever the outcome, i dont know how it's gonna affect me but in the worst cases, ill just backslide...
Father in heaven,
I pray in your name, let a miracle happen. Father I promise to work hard next year so long as you give me another chance to do so. I will not fail you... God I commit my life back to you in jesus name, amen
What did failure mean to me actually? Well I failed God's perfect plan for me. I do not regret if I retain this year, cuz i did my best. God knows. It just shows how stupid I am? Maybe Ming is right, ive got low iq. So what? Im better off being stupid scoring badly for exams but at least im someone who is able to carry out my duties and making a positive impact on the lives of many. Im better off than one who boasts around about how good he is and insulting people like me. So what i may be weaker in this? Dosen't mean Ill lose to shitheads like him?
The results are almost out. Im still uncertain of who is going to retain. But im certain that i have a 1% chance of promoting. Who cares anyway.. Im not good in my studies anyway. I study harder than the rest but all i get is.. Shitty grades? I excel in music though.. Not that bad after all.. God didnt create us to be useless perhaps... Whatever the outcome, i dont know how it's gonna affect me but in the worst cases, ill just backslide...
Father in heaven,
I pray in your name, let a miracle happen. Father I promise to work hard next year so long as you give me another chance to do so. I will not fail you... God I commit my life back to you in jesus name, amen
2:53 PM; The Pianist'
Thursday, October 18, 2007
(slack = ming Get away...= Me)
slack. says:
balless asshole
Get away loser says:
know how i feel then
slack. says:
hahaha
slack. says:
maybe not asshole
Get away loser says:
balls to admit? i just admitted?
slack. says:
you no h9ole
Get away loser says:
continue insulting man
slack. says:
so dun say i insult god's creation cos you also got insult
slack. says:
you cant see i insulting ar
Get away loser says:
am i doing that now?
slack. says:
nvm i wonder why i should waste time on worthless people unloyal dogs like you
Above is an example of how sheeps bite at you. No matter how painful, Jesus bore it.
In as much as ye have done it unto the least of these my brethren, ye have done it unto Me." Matthew 25:40.
Now i wished i never had diciples. Its not me screwing up its them not giving me any chance. I come to realize that whatever was the past could not be used as a testimony to help others. It could be just used as a weapon they use to stab you. The past cannot be forgotten. I do not live in the past but the past is just there, biting every single bit of me. I dont mind at all, really. Im accepting thousands of crap my sheep's giving me like OH JUSTIN SAYS YOUR A BIG PIECE OF SHIT. And i take that for word? I call justin up and he says no? Like whos telling the truth? Or is just someone trying to sow discord and make me feel so damn uncomfortable? God i dont want this? I dont mind losing a sheep now its not the time to regret. Its the time to look forward to the future isnt it? What should I do? Im even being regarded as iq less than 30? Can you imagine what hurtful insults that kid hurled at me? Do i just take it as though im tough and I'll accept all that? The person i spent time trying to give the best shepherding lesson to, the person i went furthest for? I dont even know what the hell justin is telling him? Like OH HE WACKED UP A GUY IN CLASS TODAY. OH HE STARE AT PEOPLE TODAY. Is another sheep causing it? If you guys expect a perfect shepherd then seriously you can kill yourself and go to heaven now. You got the perfect shepherd there. I could have not bothered, be that kind of shitty ass shepherd who just does his job for the sake of doing it. Maybe things would have been better and he wouldnt be cursin and swearing at me and my parents today. I deeply regret the effort i put in and just what the hell? You wana expect a past devil to totally change into an angel just in 1 year with you reminding him that hes a devil? Your good satan, you dragged 3 sheeps down into this traphole. And besides, what rights he got to call me satanic? Look at him? He didnt just hurl insults at my spiritual self, but also my physical body, my parents, my dignity and even christ. Whos the anti-christ here? I dont hate him neither do I love him. I just want whats best? He aint gonna even talk properly? What makes a kid? Someone who refuses to acknoloedge the present? Living in the past telling people what they DID and not what they are doing for them? Hell im tolerating this shit? What does he take me for? He can call his friends for all i care im just gonna call 999. And if you gangsters are reading this come take me, im ready shitheads. You wan trouble? I am trouble. Got that? I dont care how big you are ill make you eat my shoe. And ming if your reading this i expect you to stop spamming cuz it just makes you look foolish ^^. Oh btw if your calling me hum ji, stop insulting yourself. You dont even dare to solve one problem at a time and each time you just solve it by saying CUZ YOUR MUM'S GOT NO PUSSY. Does that sound right to you? Like what the hell? Call me Hum when you dont even dare to say it in my face when you look at me face to face? Your too bold on msn but your just a coward. You claim that im always right. The fact is, Im right because you aint talking about the present? And today i especially gave in to your crap and you took that chance to insult me more? Feeling damn good now? Wow guys like whats the fun of this? You guys think insulting people is fun? Making people beg you to stop fun? Too bad I aint beggin shitheads. If you think you deserve what god has for you, show it to god.
Father in heaven,
I do not understand what is going on now, but father i have done my job when i asked to shepherd them. Father I done more than my job for sharing testimonies and loving them more than myself. Father I done more than my job when I repented and apologized to them. Father I done more than my job for I have tolerated many insults and just bore it upon your name. Father I did exactly what you wanted me to do, and I have no regrets for this is the result you want. Father I am sorry to confess that I have sinned against you but I am proud that im living a better life in your name. Father cleanse me with the blood of Jesus and renew me with your power. The day I baptised you in your name, was the day I committed my life wholly to you. Give me your word so I can do more than my Job oh father. Help me live each day with you.
In jesus name, amen.
slack. says:
balless asshole
Get away loser says:
know how i feel then
slack. says:
hahaha
slack. says:
maybe not asshole
Get away loser says:
balls to admit? i just admitted?
slack. says:
you no h9ole
Get away loser says:
continue insulting man
slack. says:
so dun say i insult god's creation cos you also got insult
slack. says:
you cant see i insulting ar
Get away loser says:
am i doing that now?
slack. says:
nvm i wonder why i should waste time on worthless people unloyal dogs like you
Above is an example of how sheeps bite at you. No matter how painful, Jesus bore it.
In as much as ye have done it unto the least of these my brethren, ye have done it unto Me." Matthew 25:40.
Now i wished i never had diciples. Its not me screwing up its them not giving me any chance. I come to realize that whatever was the past could not be used as a testimony to help others. It could be just used as a weapon they use to stab you. The past cannot be forgotten. I do not live in the past but the past is just there, biting every single bit of me. I dont mind at all, really. Im accepting thousands of crap my sheep's giving me like OH JUSTIN SAYS YOUR A BIG PIECE OF SHIT. And i take that for word? I call justin up and he says no? Like whos telling the truth? Or is just someone trying to sow discord and make me feel so damn uncomfortable? God i dont want this? I dont mind losing a sheep now its not the time to regret. Its the time to look forward to the future isnt it? What should I do? Im even being regarded as iq less than 30? Can you imagine what hurtful insults that kid hurled at me? Do i just take it as though im tough and I'll accept all that? The person i spent time trying to give the best shepherding lesson to, the person i went furthest for? I dont even know what the hell justin is telling him? Like OH HE WACKED UP A GUY IN CLASS TODAY. OH HE STARE AT PEOPLE TODAY. Is another sheep causing it? If you guys expect a perfect shepherd then seriously you can kill yourself and go to heaven now. You got the perfect shepherd there. I could have not bothered, be that kind of shitty ass shepherd who just does his job for the sake of doing it. Maybe things would have been better and he wouldnt be cursin and swearing at me and my parents today. I deeply regret the effort i put in and just what the hell? You wana expect a past devil to totally change into an angel just in 1 year with you reminding him that hes a devil? Your good satan, you dragged 3 sheeps down into this traphole. And besides, what rights he got to call me satanic? Look at him? He didnt just hurl insults at my spiritual self, but also my physical body, my parents, my dignity and even christ. Whos the anti-christ here? I dont hate him neither do I love him. I just want whats best? He aint gonna even talk properly? What makes a kid? Someone who refuses to acknoloedge the present? Living in the past telling people what they DID and not what they are doing for them? Hell im tolerating this shit? What does he take me for? He can call his friends for all i care im just gonna call 999. And if you gangsters are reading this come take me, im ready shitheads. You wan trouble? I am trouble. Got that? I dont care how big you are ill make you eat my shoe. And ming if your reading this i expect you to stop spamming cuz it just makes you look foolish ^^. Oh btw if your calling me hum ji, stop insulting yourself. You dont even dare to solve one problem at a time and each time you just solve it by saying CUZ YOUR MUM'S GOT NO PUSSY. Does that sound right to you? Like what the hell? Call me Hum when you dont even dare to say it in my face when you look at me face to face? Your too bold on msn but your just a coward. You claim that im always right. The fact is, Im right because you aint talking about the present? And today i especially gave in to your crap and you took that chance to insult me more? Feeling damn good now? Wow guys like whats the fun of this? You guys think insulting people is fun? Making people beg you to stop fun? Too bad I aint beggin shitheads. If you think you deserve what god has for you, show it to god.
Father in heaven,
I do not understand what is going on now, but father i have done my job when i asked to shepherd them. Father I done more than my job for sharing testimonies and loving them more than myself. Father I done more than my job when I repented and apologized to them. Father I done more than my job for I have tolerated many insults and just bore it upon your name. Father I did exactly what you wanted me to do, and I have no regrets for this is the result you want. Father I am sorry to confess that I have sinned against you but I am proud that im living a better life in your name. Father cleanse me with the blood of Jesus and renew me with your power. The day I baptised you in your name, was the day I committed my life wholly to you. Give me your word so I can do more than my Job oh father. Help me live each day with you.
In jesus name, amen.
6:07 PM; The Pianist'
Tuesday, October 16, 2007
Just another day again.. A day that I just had to live for. The purpose is still there or what? I don't know anymore, when so many things just happened at once. Maybe its not at once.. I should have known? Yes i cant get over it. I just cant? Torture me more i don't mind. Stop playing games Satan? Time to stop? Isn't it about time i reflected on what made me a failure? Or am I a success? What am I? I'm just destined to lose so much? Well its all fine to me now. I wont stop till im dead. Ill find my own sheeps and bring them to heaven with all I can while im alive. No-one is going to stop me. No-one can...
Well God's decision that I should go through all this? I cant say i have been perfect but at least i have been blameless. For my actions, I gave accounts and i did my part as a shepherd. Yeah a good shepherd lays down his life for his sheep. But did the bible say that a worthy shepherd is a perfect one? Guys im not as spiritual as you think? As you can see im totally falling behind even backsliding. Is this my test? I cant even answer myself to simple questions anymore? Everytime i dont know something, I'd know who to ask, but nowadays I just.. Dont have the courage to ask for anymore strength?
Father in Heaven,
Oh lord refresh me with the holy spirit and cleanse me with the blood of Jesus. I have deeply sinned against you and I am ready to face repentance. Father I will accept any form of challenge you are going to give me and I promise to do my best in everything like i always did. Father renew me with your power and help me gain the courage to pray and seek you for more. Father I thank you for your undying love for your kingdom, father i also pray that I will be protected from all forms of satanic thoughts that I may do life well and be examplary. Father I am sorry for I have screwed up not only my own life, but your kingdom as well. I have not made a positive impact on the lives of those under my care. Father I promised to take care of your flock, but I have failed to carry out my duties well. Father educate me and equip me with the sword that cuts through the hardest hearts, and the shield that never breaks. Father I thank you for being there all the time, lord that i pray all this in the mighty name of Jesus, Amen.
Well God's decision that I should go through all this? I cant say i have been perfect but at least i have been blameless. For my actions, I gave accounts and i did my part as a shepherd. Yeah a good shepherd lays down his life for his sheep. But did the bible say that a worthy shepherd is a perfect one? Guys im not as spiritual as you think? As you can see im totally falling behind even backsliding. Is this my test? I cant even answer myself to simple questions anymore? Everytime i dont know something, I'd know who to ask, but nowadays I just.. Dont have the courage to ask for anymore strength?
Father in Heaven,
Oh lord refresh me with the holy spirit and cleanse me with the blood of Jesus. I have deeply sinned against you and I am ready to face repentance. Father I will accept any form of challenge you are going to give me and I promise to do my best in everything like i always did. Father renew me with your power and help me gain the courage to pray and seek you for more. Father I thank you for your undying love for your kingdom, father i also pray that I will be protected from all forms of satanic thoughts that I may do life well and be examplary. Father I am sorry for I have screwed up not only my own life, but your kingdom as well. I have not made a positive impact on the lives of those under my care. Father I promised to take care of your flock, but I have failed to carry out my duties well. Father educate me and equip me with the sword that cuts through the hardest hearts, and the shield that never breaks. Father I thank you for being there all the time, lord that i pray all this in the mighty name of Jesus, Amen.
7:55 PM; The Pianist'
Monday, October 15, 2007
Great. Ive lost another sheep. Is that just part of life? Are such sacrifices supposed to be made? Stop fooling me give me a reply God. Is this what you call my challenge before i rise up to a CL? Yeah this is the way i react to your challenge. Jesus i failed you. Satan you have fooled me. Is this all too late? It seems so God. I trust how much you can do, just do this for me? How does it feel to be threatened this way by someone you wanted to save the best for? Be torn apart by someone you used to adore, to give utmost attention to? To get insults, curses and swearing upon my name. Am i suppsed to be Jesus? be perfect? I was taught to be doing the right things? Like doing what is right? being blameless? Is this all? Im supposed to let go now? Give up? No? Yes? Why am i getting so many answers? Tell me oh God, what is your plan for me. I wont stop praying till i see some hope. God, this is my heart's cry.
6:06 PM; The Pianist'
Tuesday, October 9, 2007
what happened shane? Does this name mark the beginning of my nightmare? Just what happened to you!?
Sheeps have turned to rebel against me. Whatever i do does not prosper anymore. Im finally losing myself into an endless pit. Ive fallen into satan's trap perhaps. Life cant prosper for me. The moment i was born, my fate was decided. I was a monster.. I am a monster...
Fate kept me alive, God saved my life. Am i destineed to just.. live? I have no potential. None that everyone would recognize. I am fake, unworthy. I dont deserve it i should say. Sheeps turining into rebellion, because of my "wicked" ways. Countless times i have inflicted pain unto their heart! This is retribution i guess. The payback for my evil ways. I can never pay it in full. Jesus did it for me. I am useless. Im just a tool. I was never able to lead, satan have decieved me. Everyday i prayed for my sheeps to grow. While everyone fasted for a day, i fasted for three. Im tired really. Ive been but a monster. I tore the hearts of innocent sheeps. Now i know Oh lord, the reason dennis left. It was because of me! My selfishness, my useless and stupid personality. Tell me you didnt call me to be your leader. Tell me so i'd give up! Why should i even be called? I am a monster. Payback time is here huh. Finish it.
I dont mind if i were to lose all my sheeps. Not the title that disturbs me. I dont mind anything at all. No matter what outcome. I cared too much. I should have just did my job. All this may not have happened. Because i wanted them to yearn perfection, i forced things into them. I did things for them, but they never saw it as a sacrificial act. I put my faithfullness into use, my availability to the max, but nothing turned out well. It all turned out to be all wrong. Im done with this.
Sheeps have turned to rebel against me. Whatever i do does not prosper anymore. Im finally losing myself into an endless pit. Ive fallen into satan's trap perhaps. Life cant prosper for me. The moment i was born, my fate was decided. I was a monster.. I am a monster...
Fate kept me alive, God saved my life. Am i destineed to just.. live? I have no potential. None that everyone would recognize. I am fake, unworthy. I dont deserve it i should say. Sheeps turining into rebellion, because of my "wicked" ways. Countless times i have inflicted pain unto their heart! This is retribution i guess. The payback for my evil ways. I can never pay it in full. Jesus did it for me. I am useless. Im just a tool. I was never able to lead, satan have decieved me. Everyday i prayed for my sheeps to grow. While everyone fasted for a day, i fasted for three. Im tired really. Ive been but a monster. I tore the hearts of innocent sheeps. Now i know Oh lord, the reason dennis left. It was because of me! My selfishness, my useless and stupid personality. Tell me you didnt call me to be your leader. Tell me so i'd give up! Why should i even be called? I am a monster. Payback time is here huh. Finish it.
I dont mind if i were to lose all my sheeps. Not the title that disturbs me. I dont mind anything at all. No matter what outcome. I cared too much. I should have just did my job. All this may not have happened. Because i wanted them to yearn perfection, i forced things into them. I did things for them, but they never saw it as a sacrificial act. I put my faithfullness into use, my availability to the max, but nothing turned out well. It all turned out to be all wrong. Im done with this.
5:44 PM; The Pianist'
Sunday, October 7, 2007
YAY MY WATER BAPTISM CERT!!!!
$7.10 Drink... OUCH
cool? ^^ zzzzz offf for now... ZZZ dead tired... Smell ya guys next time! BYE!
11:28 PM; The Pianist'
look at those cards n gifts!!!!! Woo!
a very bored me blogging...
Haha playing cards during Cg last friday!
Food!!!
Quan Kai lol
E BEAUTIFUL CAKE!
well not so beautiful after all...
Well Cg was not exactly a success since i really screwed up this time.. Heh Ill do my best next time ^^. Heh to all the 4 fellow brothers who helped celebrate my birthday, THANKS!!!!!
First birthday in church and im recieving so much showers of blessings! heh
11:12 PM; The Pianist'
Wednesday, October 3, 2007
Weight of the World
Sweetest sound I've ever heard
Sound of heaven calling out for me
Before I ever called Your name
You gave Your life for me
And all the things I ever did
You took them on the cross
You took the weight of the world on Your shoulders
You took the weight of the world on Your shoulders
You did it all for me
Yes You did it all for me
Greatest love I've ever known
That You would give Your life to set me free
Before I ever called Your name
You paid the price for me
And all the things I ever did
You bore on Calvary
You took the weight of the world on Your shoulders
You took the weight of the world on Your shoulders
You did it all for me
Yes You did it all for me
You took the weight of the world on Your shoulders
You took the weight of the world on Your shoulders
You did it all for me
Yes You did it all for me
Take me as I amInto Your nail scarred hands
And when I run so far away
You always call me back again
Into Your open arms
No matter what I've done
Amazing grace has found me here
Because of what You've done I'm free
You took the weight of the world on Your shoulders
You took the weight of the world on Your shoulders
You did it all for me
Yes You did it all for me
Hmm people... Hope this song means something to you, cuz it means alot to me.Who else bore the weight of the world on his very shoulders, lived just to die for the sinful men, preached and performed miracles when he was going to die on the cross for us? Jesus Is the only saviour and there is no other way. Yes friends, no other way. I've drawn away from school friends because I'm a changed person. I refuse to indulge in sinful activities. Though I have less friends and tend to get mocked at, Its better than to be the ones who mock others!
In as much as ye have done it unto the least of these my brethren, ye have done it unto Me." Matthew 25:40.
Well second day of being so sick.. Well feeling better now.. just a little... Sick? Well.. sore throat and a slight headache. The nausea is gone.. Joint and muscle pains are fading away. Praise God!!! Heh non-christians reading this blog, you may think im a little crazy and boring person cuz I only blog about wonders and miracles and so many of those blessings God has given unto me. Heh just hope that you guys can get to know christ soon!
Well 4 papers totally missed heh.. Both the Elementary Maths papers, Geography and Biology too... Uh... Oh well... I hope there will be a retest heh! hmm... WELL... Catch ya guys next time! BYEEEE!
-Shane Lum-
10:44 AM; The Pianist'
Tuesday, October 2, 2007
You don't actually have to take the quiz. Just read straight through, and you'll get the point, an awesome one. .....
Take this quiz: 1. Name the five wealthiest people in the world. 2. Name the last five Heisman trophy winners. 3. Name the last five winners of the Miss America contest. 4. Name ten people who have won the Nobel or Pulitzer Prize. 5. Name the last half dozen Academy Award winners for best actor actress. 6. Name the last decade's worth of World Series winners. How did you do? The point is, none of us remember the headliners of yesterday. These are no second-rate achievers. They are the best in their fields. But the applause dies. Awards tarnish. Achievements are forgotten. Accolades and certificates are buried with their owners.
Here's another quiz. See how you do on this one: 1. List a few teachers who aided your journey through school. 2. Name three friends who have helped you through a difficult time. 3. Name five people who have taught you something worthwhile. 4. Think of a few people who have made you feel, appreciated and special. 5. Think of five people you enjoy spending time with. 6. Name half a dozen heroes whose stories have inspired you. Easier?
The lesson: The people who make a difference in your life are not the ones with the most credentials, the most money, or the most awards. They are the ones that care. Pass this on to those people who have made a difference in your life.
Value
A well known speaker started off his seminar by holding up a $20 bill. In the room of 200, he asked, "Who would like this $20 bill?"
Hands started going up.
He said, "I am going to give this $20 to one of you but first, let me do this." He proceeded to crumple the dollar bill up.
He then asked, "Who still wants it?"
Still the hands were up in the air.
"Well," he replied, "What if I do this?" And he dropped it on the ground and started to grind it into the floor with his shoe.
He picked it up, now all crumpled and dirty. "Now who still wants it?" Still the hands went into the air.
"My friends, you have all learned a very valuable lesson. No matter what I did to the money, you still wanted it because it did not decrease in value. It was still worth $20.
Many times in our lives, we are dropped, crumpled, and ground into the dirt by the decisions we make and the circumstances that come our way.
We feel as though we are worthless. But no matter what has happened or what will happen, you will never lose your value. You are special - Don't ever forget it!
Life Still Has A Meaning
If there is a future there is time for mending-Time to see your troubles coming to an ending.
Life is never hopeless however great your sorrow-If you're looking forward to a new tomorrow.
If there is time for wishing then there is time for hoping-When through doubt and darkness you are blindly groping.
Though the heart be heavy and hurt you may be feeling-If there is time for praying there is time for healing.So if through your window there is a new day breaking-Thank God for the promise, though mind and soul be aching,
If with harvest over there is grain enough for gleaning-There is a new tomorrow and life still has meaning.
DON'T WE ALL
I was parked in front of the mall wiping off my car. I had just come from the car wash and was waiting for my wife to get out of work. Coming my way from across the parking lot was what society would consider a bum. From the looks of him, he had no car, no home, no clean clothes, and no money. There are times when you feel generous but there are other times that you just don't want to be bothered. This was one of those "don't want to be bothered times." "I hope he doesn't ask me for any money," I thought. He didn't. He came and sat on the curb in front of the bus stop but he didn't look like he could have enough money to even ride the bus. After a few minutes he spoke. "That's a very pretty car," he said. He was ragged but he had an air of dignity around him. His scraggly blond beard keep more than his face warm. I said, "thanks," and continued wiping off my car.
He sat there quietly as I worked. The expected plea for money never came. As the silence between us widened something inside said, "ask him if he needs any help." I was sure that he would say "yes" but I held true to the inner voice. "Do you need any help?" I asked. He answered in three simple but profound words that I shall never forget. We often look for wisdom in great men and women. We expect it from those of higher learning and accomplishments.
I expected nothing but an outstretched grimy hand. He spoke the three words that shook me. "Don't we all?" he said.
I was feeling high and mighty, successful and important, above a bum in the street, until those three words hit me like a twelve gauge shotgun. Don't we all? I needed help. Maybe not for bus fare or a place to sleep, but I needed help. I reached in my wallet and gave him not only enough for bus fare, but enough to get a warm meal and shelter for the day. Those three little words still ring true. No matter how much you have, no matter how much you have accomplished, you need help too. No matter how little you have, no matter how loaded you are with problems, even without money or a place to sleep, you can give help.
Even if it's just a compliment, you can give that. You never know when you may see someone that appears to have it all. They are waiting on you to give them what they don't have. A different perspective on life, a glimpse at something beautiful, a respite from daily chaos, that only you through a torn world can see. Maybe the man was just a homeless stranger wandering the streets. Maybe he was more than that.
Maybe he was sent by a power that is great and wise, to minister to a soul too comfortable in themselves.
Maybe God looked down, called an Angel, dressed him like a bum, then said, "go minister to that man cleaning the car, that man needs help." Don't we all?
Take this quiz: 1. Name the five wealthiest people in the world. 2. Name the last five Heisman trophy winners. 3. Name the last five winners of the Miss America contest. 4. Name ten people who have won the Nobel or Pulitzer Prize. 5. Name the last half dozen Academy Award winners for best actor actress. 6. Name the last decade's worth of World Series winners. How did you do? The point is, none of us remember the headliners of yesterday. These are no second-rate achievers. They are the best in their fields. But the applause dies. Awards tarnish. Achievements are forgotten. Accolades and certificates are buried with their owners.
Here's another quiz. See how you do on this one: 1. List a few teachers who aided your journey through school. 2. Name three friends who have helped you through a difficult time. 3. Name five people who have taught you something worthwhile. 4. Think of a few people who have made you feel, appreciated and special. 5. Think of five people you enjoy spending time with. 6. Name half a dozen heroes whose stories have inspired you. Easier?
The lesson: The people who make a difference in your life are not the ones with the most credentials, the most money, or the most awards. They are the ones that care. Pass this on to those people who have made a difference in your life.
Value
A well known speaker started off his seminar by holding up a $20 bill. In the room of 200, he asked, "Who would like this $20 bill?"
Hands started going up.
He said, "I am going to give this $20 to one of you but first, let me do this." He proceeded to crumple the dollar bill up.
He then asked, "Who still wants it?"
Still the hands were up in the air.
"Well," he replied, "What if I do this?" And he dropped it on the ground and started to grind it into the floor with his shoe.
He picked it up, now all crumpled and dirty. "Now who still wants it?" Still the hands went into the air.
"My friends, you have all learned a very valuable lesson. No matter what I did to the money, you still wanted it because it did not decrease in value. It was still worth $20.
Many times in our lives, we are dropped, crumpled, and ground into the dirt by the decisions we make and the circumstances that come our way.
We feel as though we are worthless. But no matter what has happened or what will happen, you will never lose your value. You are special - Don't ever forget it!
Life Still Has A Meaning
If there is a future there is time for mending-Time to see your troubles coming to an ending.
Life is never hopeless however great your sorrow-If you're looking forward to a new tomorrow.
If there is time for wishing then there is time for hoping-When through doubt and darkness you are blindly groping.
Though the heart be heavy and hurt you may be feeling-If there is time for praying there is time for healing.So if through your window there is a new day breaking-Thank God for the promise, though mind and soul be aching,
If with harvest over there is grain enough for gleaning-There is a new tomorrow and life still has meaning.
DON'T WE ALL
I was parked in front of the mall wiping off my car. I had just come from the car wash and was waiting for my wife to get out of work. Coming my way from across the parking lot was what society would consider a bum. From the looks of him, he had no car, no home, no clean clothes, and no money. There are times when you feel generous but there are other times that you just don't want to be bothered. This was one of those "don't want to be bothered times." "I hope he doesn't ask me for any money," I thought. He didn't. He came and sat on the curb in front of the bus stop but he didn't look like he could have enough money to even ride the bus. After a few minutes he spoke. "That's a very pretty car," he said. He was ragged but he had an air of dignity around him. His scraggly blond beard keep more than his face warm. I said, "thanks," and continued wiping off my car.
He sat there quietly as I worked. The expected plea for money never came. As the silence between us widened something inside said, "ask him if he needs any help." I was sure that he would say "yes" but I held true to the inner voice. "Do you need any help?" I asked. He answered in three simple but profound words that I shall never forget. We often look for wisdom in great men and women. We expect it from those of higher learning and accomplishments.
I expected nothing but an outstretched grimy hand. He spoke the three words that shook me. "Don't we all?" he said.
I was feeling high and mighty, successful and important, above a bum in the street, until those three words hit me like a twelve gauge shotgun. Don't we all? I needed help. Maybe not for bus fare or a place to sleep, but I needed help. I reached in my wallet and gave him not only enough for bus fare, but enough to get a warm meal and shelter for the day. Those three little words still ring true. No matter how much you have, no matter how much you have accomplished, you need help too. No matter how little you have, no matter how loaded you are with problems, even without money or a place to sleep, you can give help.
Even if it's just a compliment, you can give that. You never know when you may see someone that appears to have it all. They are waiting on you to give them what they don't have. A different perspective on life, a glimpse at something beautiful, a respite from daily chaos, that only you through a torn world can see. Maybe the man was just a homeless stranger wandering the streets. Maybe he was more than that.
Maybe he was sent by a power that is great and wise, to minister to a soul too comfortable in themselves.
Maybe God looked down, called an Angel, dressed him like a bum, then said, "go minister to that man cleaning the car, that man needs help." Don't we all?
3:21 PM; The Pianist'
Father in Heaven,
I come to you again, with much enthusiasm and hope, father i thank you once again for what you have done on the cross, to set me free of the chains binding me to the very gates of hell. Father I pray that my ailment will be delievered, for tomorrow is a very important exam date and i cannot afford to miss 4 papers. Father I thank you for you have shown mercy and Father I commit my life into you once again and I pray all this in the mighty name of Jesus, Amen.
Well these 2 days have been a very bad day for me. Pray do im not down with dengue.. High fever yesterday and today morning of 40 degrees. Hope it never comes back! Been many times an inch away from death. Why do i fear this time? I am not done with my task in this world. It is not my time yet... Father i believe so.
Time to study~
I come to you again, with much enthusiasm and hope, father i thank you once again for what you have done on the cross, to set me free of the chains binding me to the very gates of hell. Father I pray that my ailment will be delievered, for tomorrow is a very important exam date and i cannot afford to miss 4 papers. Father I thank you for you have shown mercy and Father I commit my life into you once again and I pray all this in the mighty name of Jesus, Amen.
Well these 2 days have been a very bad day for me. Pray do im not down with dengue.. High fever yesterday and today morning of 40 degrees. Hope it never comes back! Been many times an inch away from death. Why do i fear this time? I am not done with my task in this world. It is not my time yet... Father i believe so.
Time to study~
2:40 PM; The Pianist'
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