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Tuesday, October 16, 2007

Just another day again.. A day that I just had to live for. The purpose is still there or what? I don't know anymore, when so many things just happened at once. Maybe its not at once.. I should have known? Yes i cant get over it. I just cant? Torture me more i don't mind. Stop playing games Satan? Time to stop? Isn't it about time i reflected on what made me a failure? Or am I a success? What am I? I'm just destined to lose so much? Well its all fine to me now. I wont stop till im dead. Ill find my own sheeps and bring them to heaven with all I can while im alive. No-one is going to stop me. No-one can...
Well God's decision that I should go through all this? I cant say i have been perfect but at least i have been blameless. For my actions, I gave accounts and i did my part as a shepherd. Yeah a good shepherd lays down his life for his sheep. But did the bible say that a worthy shepherd is a perfect one? Guys im not as spiritual as you think? As you can see im totally falling behind even backsliding. Is this my test? I cant even answer myself to simple questions anymore? Everytime i dont know something, I'd know who to ask, but nowadays I just.. Dont have the courage to ask for anymore strength?

Father in Heaven,
Oh lord refresh me with the holy spirit and cleanse me with the blood of Jesus. I have deeply sinned against you and I am ready to face repentance. Father I will accept any form of challenge you are going to give me and I promise to do my best in everything like i always did. Father renew me with your power and help me gain the courage to pray and seek you for more. Father I thank you for your undying love for your kingdom, father i also pray that I will be protected from all forms of satanic thoughts that I may do life well and be examplary. Father I am sorry for I have screwed up not only my own life, but your kingdom as well. I have not made a positive impact on the lives of those under my care. Father I promised to take care of your flock, but I have failed to carry out my duties well. Father educate me and equip me with the sword that cuts through the hardest hearts, and the shield that never breaks. Father I thank you for being there all the time, lord that i pray all this in the mighty name of Jesus, Amen.

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