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Thursday, October 18, 2007

(slack = ming Get away...= Me)
slack. says:
balless asshole
Get away loser says:
know how i feel then
slack. says:
hahaha
slack. says:
maybe not asshole
Get away loser says:
balls to admit? i just admitted?
slack. says:
you no h9ole
Get away loser says:
continue insulting man
slack. says:
so dun say i insult god's creation cos you also got insult
slack. says:
you cant see i insulting ar
Get away loser says:
am i doing that now?
slack. says:
nvm i wonder why i should waste time on worthless people unloyal dogs like you

Above is an example of how sheeps bite at you. No matter how painful, Jesus bore it.

In as much as ye have done it unto the least of these my brethren, ye have done it unto Me." Matthew 25:40.

Now i wished i never had diciples. Its not me screwing up its them not giving me any chance. I come to realize that whatever was the past could not be used as a testimony to help others. It could be just used as a weapon they use to stab you. The past cannot be forgotten. I do not live in the past but the past is just there, biting every single bit of me. I dont mind at all, really. Im accepting thousands of crap my sheep's giving me like OH JUSTIN SAYS YOUR A BIG PIECE OF SHIT. And i take that for word? I call justin up and he says no? Like whos telling the truth? Or is just someone trying to sow discord and make me feel so damn uncomfortable? God i dont want this? I dont mind losing a sheep now its not the time to regret. Its the time to look forward to the future isnt it? What should I do? Im even being regarded as iq less than 30? Can you imagine what hurtful insults that kid hurled at me? Do i just take it as though im tough and I'll accept all that? The person i spent time trying to give the best shepherding lesson to, the person i went furthest for? I dont even know what the hell justin is telling him? Like OH HE WACKED UP A GUY IN CLASS TODAY. OH HE STARE AT PEOPLE TODAY. Is another sheep causing it? If you guys expect a perfect shepherd then seriously you can kill yourself and go to heaven now. You got the perfect shepherd there. I could have not bothered, be that kind of shitty ass shepherd who just does his job for the sake of doing it. Maybe things would have been better and he wouldnt be cursin and swearing at me and my parents today. I deeply regret the effort i put in and just what the hell? You wana expect a past devil to totally change into an angel just in 1 year with you reminding him that hes a devil? Your good satan, you dragged 3 sheeps down into this traphole. And besides, what rights he got to call me satanic? Look at him? He didnt just hurl insults at my spiritual self, but also my physical body, my parents, my dignity and even christ. Whos the anti-christ here? I dont hate him neither do I love him. I just want whats best? He aint gonna even talk properly? What makes a kid? Someone who refuses to acknoloedge the present? Living in the past telling people what they DID and not what they are doing for them? Hell im tolerating this shit? What does he take me for? He can call his friends for all i care im just gonna call 999. And if you gangsters are reading this come take me, im ready shitheads. You wan trouble? I am trouble. Got that? I dont care how big you are ill make you eat my shoe. And ming if your reading this i expect you to stop spamming cuz it just makes you look foolish ^^. Oh btw if your calling me hum ji, stop insulting yourself. You dont even dare to solve one problem at a time and each time you just solve it by saying CUZ YOUR MUM'S GOT NO PUSSY. Does that sound right to you? Like what the hell? Call me Hum when you dont even dare to say it in my face when you look at me face to face? Your too bold on msn but your just a coward. You claim that im always right. The fact is, Im right because you aint talking about the present? And today i especially gave in to your crap and you took that chance to insult me more? Feeling damn good now? Wow guys like whats the fun of this? You guys think insulting people is fun? Making people beg you to stop fun? Too bad I aint beggin shitheads. If you think you deserve what god has for you, show it to god.

Father in heaven,
I do not understand what is going on now, but father i have done my job when i asked to shepherd them. Father I done more than my job for sharing testimonies and loving them more than myself. Father I done more than my job when I repented and apologized to them. Father I done more than my job for I have tolerated many insults and just bore it upon your name. Father I did exactly what you wanted me to do, and I have no regrets for this is the result you want. Father I am sorry to confess that I have sinned against you but I am proud that im living a better life in your name. Father cleanse me with the blood of Jesus and renew me with your power. The day I baptised you in your name, was the day I committed my life wholly to you. Give me your word so I can do more than my Job oh father. Help me live each day with you.
In jesus name, amen.

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