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Wednesday, March 5, 2008

Lol realized I havent blogged for some time... Well.. Decided to blog about my dilemma right now..
1. Go to school on friday and miss floorball, have a bad day there, sulk, miss fellowship
2. Not go to school and Risk being scolded by Teachers, risk demerit points, Risk argument with parents, risk detention classes, go for floorball, enjoy my day, Smile, Fellowship.

What to do???? I asked my mother and she was like NO CANNOT. Freak la... I hate it when people give me a NO for an answer and dosen't explain why. It just makes me feel abused. I hate being taken advantage of when i always follow through if my parents simply did not agree. Its time to change? I hate questioning myself why they might not allow me to do things but i feel that i have the rights to choose what i want? A few days ago i was writing an essay about "Freedom". It reminds me of how much pain I had to go through to get it today. Even today, my parents still act like they care alot for me. They took my ATM card, and only gave me a portion of my earnings. Might as well stop working? Everything i do seems require their permission. I hate it.
Back to the freedom part. Dont you find it senseless that most parents would just say "No" to a simple request and refuses to say why? What they say would probably be," you will know why one day", OR "Because i said no". I think such ways of saying NO is probably the dumbest things a parent will do.

#1 It obviously makes the child question about WHY NOT
#2 It will make the parent-child relationship worse.
#3 It an obvious abuse of authority.

Oh well... Just had an argument with my Mum. Frikin not understanding la.

Me: Can i study at home on friday? The school programme is redundant and pointless..
Mum: NO
Me: Its useless for me.. I'd rather study a whole day at home than stay in school till 9... Or visit some crappy New water plant.
Mum: Its a school day. MUST GO.
Me: Id rather study at home.. Its more productive...
Mum: I said go means must go.
Me: Its not you who is going of course you would say no. Why wont you just try to understand my situation?
Mum: I said go ah dont argue.

*Arguement ends as i didnt wish for any bullshit to continue*

*A good example of retarded child handling*

Cant stand this... Im gonna end with a prayer..
Father in heaven,
I pray that my parents could understand me better and allow me to make my own decisions, and do what i want to do with their blessings. I do not wish to go against them, but all i ask is permission to do what is rightful, no matter the consequences i may bear, i will not bear grudges against them, and i promise to take care of myself. I pray that things would turn out better this time, for lord, i long for you to answer my prayer. This prayer i never stopped praying.. Father may you help me in any miraculous way, change the perception of my mother. I pray that I will be able to skip the programmes in school that will last till a very late hour, as time could be spent more productively. I pray all this in your name, Amen

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