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Thursday, July 24, 2008

Yeah according to the time i blog today, you guys can guess that i didn't go to school. The reaction my mum gave when i didn't go to school. You guys wanna know? Then fix your eyes on what I'm about to say.
6:50am today;
Shane - Mum I'm really exhausted and i seem to be having a fever. I dint think i can concentrate in school today so i would like to rest at home
Mum - What!?
*slaps me around and tries to make me stand up and prepare for school.*
Shane - I told you i got a headache already. Don't make it worse. You don't even bother to check.
Mum - yeah like real you got a headache. Stand up and get ready to go to school.
Shane - *unable to muster the required strength, he kinda fainted.
And guess what? During that time, my mum confisticated the XBOX controllers, smashed a few plates, made a din, woke my whole family up, whinned about things.
When i woke up, Mum was like whinning non stop. I couldn't even TRY to study. I got so fed up i just wanted to play my xbox. Then i realized the controllers were gone. All i could think of was to get back at my mum for doing this to me.
Dad scolded me for making mum wake him up. He didnt even mention anything about the fact that i didnt turn up for school or even encourage me to do otherwise.
I sent Mum a sms which i deeply regretted. Something i thought might make her think, or even hurt her feelings.
It said:
Seriously if your so unhappy with the things i do, dont whine around when it happens. Dont act like your the one suffering when your obviously not. All you do is try to give me concern and then what? Scold me like shit and toss things around when i do something you dont want me to do? You think that motivates me to study? Think about what your doing. You think it benefits me? I tell you, it soiled our relationship so badly and makes me stressed out instead.

So in the midst of anger, i sinned. Bitter am i now, over the spilt milk i have caused. Over the bloodshed i have caused. I am sorry. I want to be sorry. This just aint right. I have gone too far. I have made God tear again. Am i worth being a christ follower, let alone a CL when i cant even handle my family problems properly? My family is tearing apart. My brothers dont actually give a damn about what is happening.
Everything is back to square one.
I just wana say sorry. Not just to my family, but also my friends and God. I have disappointed you again and again, yet you all have not given up on me.
Dear heavenly father,
you tore the veil and you made a way 2 thousand years ago. Today i claim in jesus name, wisdom. I claim it as you have stated clearly in your commands, that whoever asks will recieve. Today i ask with all my faith, i put in you. Prove yourself real to me. Tear the veil, make a way for me. I ask in jesus name today, that you aid me to break the chains satan has bound me to. Break the chains of sin and death. Redeem me once again, give me hope. Give me wisdom to live life the way you want my life to be. In the name of Jesus i pray, Amen

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