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Friday, February 20, 2009

Over the past few months, my desperate struggle against the search for proof to the existence of Christ has ended officially today. I have only come to realize I am only just plain foolish to doubt the existence of Christ due to a moment of failure. (I've elaborated on that on my last few posts im sure)
http://ablaze.org.au/torchie/?p=50
The only thing I am still unsure of is the fate that landed on me. The amount of effort I had placed in the construction of the kingdom. The time I had decided to give up my life for the sake of the Gospel. I was dead serious, at the same time I had been removed from leadership without a reason. God promised that my path would have been a victorious one, and he would lead me to serve him in greater amounts and heights. All I thought of was the very vision God has given to me years back even before I became a leader, that was the endless flow of a generation of strong and biblical Men walking into SSS, with their countless disappointments as well as victories and testimonies that prove the existence of Christ in their lives. The dream had been almost impossible to me now. I have wasted the past few months doubting God and living an ungodly life, thinking it was God who owed me something. I was wrong. Obviously, God does not owe us anything. Anything he decides to do to us, is for us, not against us. Hey if God loved to play with our feelings, whats the difference between God and Bird?
The dreams that I have dreamt of, the conviction I had that was once God, I only hope had not been a waste of time. The generation of men I have built and the conviction I have left behind, I only hope had not been a futile effort.
Focused on what is to come, focused on that very thing that will be of growth and not of harm.
Sorry and thank you, my dear friend.

Father in Heaven,
I believe it has seemed like an eternity since I had prayed. Again, I am lost in the wonder of your amazing love. The kind of love you offer to people who even betray or are against you. The wonder of your amazing grace that softens the hardest hearts. Your word that pierces through the hardest hearts, that decide to bless us, is the light the world. The world does not need another guy that will do something that might get him into the Guinness Book of World Records, but the world just plainly needs your love. Your love that will satisfy their hunger, their desire for love and acceptance. Their desire to be themselves instead of acting like somebody else to gain approval. Thank you God that your still here.

12:32 PM; The Pianist'

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