thePIANIST
Friday, June 5, 2009
Life has indeed been fun-filled. Living the church-less life.. Some things bother me,but I shouldn't be saying it here.
What is God to me? Some ask. What is all that friendship to me? So much for serving so hard the past few years, they say. I announce that it has been tiring, too tiring I feel. It's as if im working a job. Why serve? I always ask. Just because God loves you, you wana do he same, you can only serve, bla bla, don't wana see others burn in hell, whatever. I think im starting to hate that truth. The truth of God giving as a second chance to be his pawn in his game. Either we be a part of the chess piece, or be eliminated and suffer for eternity, forgotten in the fiery chasm of hell. I am pretty selfish aint i?
You all think I dont give a damn about my friends or those people. Yes alright fair enough. How much of myself should i sacrifice to prevent that kind of hellish scenario then? Im already bleeding from my experience in serving. I felt no joy, just pain. I think its pretty impossible to serve when I cant even be motivated to love something I dont. Really, stop all this "Burn in hell" shit. It's not that i don't care. I just dont want it to become the only reason I serve. I hate to be a pawn, really..
More of you and less of me? I think thats rubbish.
11:05 PM; The Pianist'
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Shane from RP class w35a
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