thePIANIST

Tuesday, June 16, 2009

Second day.. Enterprising was a hell of a bitch.
Im in a terrible mood today. I'm just not showing everything. I have friends to throw all these burdens at, but I'll choose to just throw them here.
Most of you probably know me as a guy who seems to be a tough one. I go to school, acting as if i was an extrovert who wanted to get to know everyone in class. You guys know all the crap i say. What retarded jokes i crack. Trust me. I didn't know that was me. I don't even know if im acting. I dont even know who i am now. Who is the Shane you know? What did he look like? What made him happy? What makes him sad? I feel like I have a sudden loss of memmory, and im desperately trying to find an opening to the shithole im stuck in. I hate to vent all this on anyone but i feel like i have no choice but to do everything here. It doesnt feel like an emotional problem. I dont think im mentally tired. I think too much? Maybe?
Who am I? What am I living for? What is my purpose in life? What truely satisfies me?
God is that you? Screwing me up? I need some answers..

Life has been a bore. I realized i slowly and gradually fell away from my close friends. Did i have many to begin with? I feel lonely, vexed, tired. I need a shoulder i can lean on. It feels like hell. Getting into a relationship now would only drag the person down together into the shithole i am in. So thats definately not the solution. Besides, don't you girls think im way too immatured for anyone? Ah that was random.

9:05 PM; The Pianist'

thePIANIST;

Shane from RP class w35a

Loves the piano

Hates rappers

ur hates here

the WISH:

Someone

theCHATTERBOX;

theEXITS;

Angela
Apologetics
Brian
Caryn
Chermaine
Daphne
Desmond Mark
Hongji
Hsueh Ni
Ikekie
Kai Hwee
Michelle (Hope)
Sharmaine
Shepherd
Stephanie
Tiffany
Vivian
Yeshen

thePAST;