thePIANIST

Sunday, February 20, 2011

I didn't expect this place to still exist up until this day. I didn't expect this to be the only page where I can pour my heart out unto after years of not touching this blog at all. Since the other blog is getting stalked I guess I can only write it down here.

I guess I'm beginning to need you more and more each day. Every second now you occupy my head, and even in my dreams it revolves, like a never ending cycle. I never thought I'd be this in love, but with the right person at the wrong time. I don't just want myself to be happy. I know I cant knowing the fact that you are with him and it sucks to the core every time you tell me you don't enjoy being with him or tell me you think about me when your with him because that is just wrong. You cant be happy with him if your thinking about me, yet your not letting me back off. If i take a step back, you will be unhappy, and I probably will be hurting too. If I don't, I will suffer because I know I'm not supposed to be doing this, and in turn you will too because you see me sad. I hate to see you sad but moving away from you which is the most logical thing to do will make you sad and that will kill my heart.

I already know your answer. There's just no way you would do that for me, and it was just my illusion all along. Don't worry about my feelings now. Be selfish for me. and just be happy, it's all i ask.

1:39 PM; The Pianist'

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